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The Masochist by yuumei The Masochist by yuumei
I always wanted to draw a picture that explores the personality of a masochist, but not someone who physically abuses oneself; I wanted someone who enjoys emotional abuse.

I imagine that person to be someone who does contradicting things. It wants to be with other people, but locks itself in a bathroom. It doesn't want to be wet, but turn on the facets and opens an umbrella. It wants friends and cuts out little people, then tears them apart.

The gratifying pain is symbolized through the bleeding paper dolls.

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I wanted to try a new drawing technique with this picture. It lacks the thin lines and smooth colors of my other styles. I drew it with a canvas texture but it's hard to see because of the small size on dA. The actual image is very big with detailed textured lines that looks like it was made with charcoal. :D

Drawn in Paint tool SAI

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Given 2009-11-20
The Masochist by *yuumei ( Suggested by eroic and Featured by sambees )
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rachelcp17 Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
I felt like crying after reading the description I totally and completely relate I don't know if I'm a complete masochist but I think I am at least partially and I hate the contradictions especially to do with friends why cant life be black and white why do I hate and love something at the same time why do I want you to know something but at the same time I neever want you to find out why do i want you to leave me but at the same time hope you never leave why am i sad that you left me why am i both sad and happy that you came back why cant I choose between happy or sad?why do I have to be so complicated
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MegatronDX Featured By Owner 4 days ago
Creepy looking....
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Hentaiprinz Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2015
OMG! THIS IS TOO EVIL FOR ME!!!!
look at this papermens (or however they r spelled?)! i would insta-suicide myself for this
#noirony

btw: this pic is nice, but i don't get it. maybe it's cause my schizophrenia and it seems rly nice in thos room
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DragonREM Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015   Artist
Beautiful! The caption is very precise and the art is well done and expressed! <3 Awesome!
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rainbowcat1234 Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2014  Student Writer
right in the feels.
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Begociraptor Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Been there.
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sventstrife Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014  Professional General Artist
Beautiful.
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mai87142002 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
it moves me greatly.
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Kane305 Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Wow this hits close to home.
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8Death-The-Girl8 Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I love this, everything fits so perfectly!
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NKGNtinyan Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2014  Student Artist
I'm, fan of you<3
I have picture folder that is named YUUMEI :D
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heartWinds Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2014
"It wants to be with other people, but locks itself in a bathroom. It doesn't want to be wet, but turn on the facets and opens an umbrella. It wants friends and cuts out little people, then tears them apart. " Be it emotional abuse or self struggles, it's another form of art, it's human, it's life... love this art piece.Happy Cry 
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YaoiPizzax3 Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
unlock my inner sadism 
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Meeplogic Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014
is it alright if I put this as my facebook cover? I'll credit :)
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Tenkamchi-Sama Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
amazing.

in simply EVERY detail of it.

nothing left to say.
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Cantarellaire Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Best piece of artwork I've seen in a long time.
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SexySlimeGirl Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2014
 can i use this if i give credit
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vi-chan99 Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2014
Asdfadds the coloring is soo amazing and you really captured the atmosphere :3
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daweedly Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2013  Student General Artist
This is coming from an actual masochist (don't judge me.) I think you hit the nail on the head. And for anyone who asks: I don't know why I am. I just am and I used to be afraid of telling anyone about it but ive just embrased what I am and the meaning and effect of being a masochist.
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ABlackSun Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I bought this print at AX2013 and it's my favorite print. I have it above my head and it's the center of all my art that I have. I feel such a connection to this image. It's so painful. I connect so deeply with it. It's just one of my favoritest pictures of all time. Thank you.
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jkg07 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
I like it because I'm a bit of a sadist
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:iconwhitewolf113:
WhiteWolf113 Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2013
I think sadist and masochist are two different things
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Angel-of-Darkness-22 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Sadist: someone who enjoys seeing others experience pain

Masochist: someone who enjoys experiencing pain

Jkg07s comment makes sense :T
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WhiteWolf113 Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2013
I have met ALOT people who calls themselfes sadists but will NEVER hurt themselfes in any way.
Its like eating ice-cream and seeing people eat ice-cream. You just don't fell the taste. But thats just my opinion.
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Angel-of-Darkness-22 Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
But a sadist is someone who enjoys watching others experience pain... Not experience it.

And what jkg07 is saying is that they like this picture because its someone experiencing pain...
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WhiteWolf113 Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2013
That makes a UNIVERSE of sense : D

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Angel-of-Darkness-22 Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm sorry I'm not really good with ...stuff.

But was that sarcasm? I'm not really sure how to take that
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WhiteWolf113 Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2013
Nope. That wasn't sarcasm ^^
And now Im that dumb guy and you are that clever girl ^^"
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tigerseye2055 Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
nice art work

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acaciaz Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2013
Describes it well!
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1eyewonder Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
1. To yourself, say the name of the only guy or girl you wanna be with 3 times!


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2. Think of something you wanna accomplish within the next week and
say it to your self 6 times!!


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3. If you had 1 wish what would it be? say it to yourself 9 times!!!


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4. Think of something that you want to happen between you and that
1special person and say it to your self 12 times!!!


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Now make one last & final wish about that one wish that you picked.







After reading this, you have 1 hour to send it out to 15 people, and
what you wished for will come true within in one week!







u only get one chance!!!!! Now scroll down and think of your
crush!!!



























































Keep going

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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!











Did you think of your crush? I hope so, that was your last chance. Now
pay very close attention this important message!



Sorry but once read, must be sent. Yes, this is one of those kinda
chain letters that everyone hates. This one has been going since 1864
and if you break this chain, you will pay!!!!!! Remember that
after hearing these stories.


First Example:


Take Barbra Wallace .. She was a pretty lucky girl, up till she got
this same chain letter. She had a crush on th e same kid since
kindergarden. when she got this mail she didn't pay any attention to
it. She just thought, no big deal. And deleted it. The next day her
dad got fired and her mom dies in a car crash. If she would have sent
the letter none of that would have happened and her mom would be
alive.


Second Example:


Try Freddie D. Now Freddie D. was your average nerd. Had glasses, was
short and chubby, was in gifted. All the signs of
your total dork. He also received this letter and sent it to 51
people in the hour. Now, like Barbra , he had a crush on a girl since
3rd grade. The next day after sending the chain the girl confessed her
love for him ever since 3rd grade. Freddie D. finally had the courage
to ask
her out, and of course, she had been waiting to yes to that for years.
They grew up and
married each other to live happily forever.


Third Example:

Now if you couldn't relate to the others, this'll get ya hooked.
Listen to this. A kid named Jordan Johnson was just getting on AOL to
check his mail. He was a quiet kid, not that popular but not a geek
either. he was just normal. He saw he had mail from his friend. It was
this exact letter. Now Jordan Johnsen was a smart kid and he knew what
could happen if he didnt pass it on. He simply pulled a few friends
from his buddy list and sent it along. The next day, about that same
time, he got a phone call. It said he had won the lottery!
then his dad came home and bought him a new bike! His mom bought him
Nintendo64 and play station! His grandmother sent him a new computer,
and his best friend
gave him tickets to the concert he wanted to go to, Kid Rock and Limp Bizkit!
Then he inherited a brand-new tv from his aunt! He was goin' wild! the
next day his secret crush asked him out, and they have been going out
ever since.


Now, you heard the stories. I know which person i'd rather
be, but thats up to you. I wouldn't wanna end up like Barbra but thats
only me. We all want what we cant have but now's ur chance to go out
withthat special somebody ur waiting for. Take it or leave it. If you
send this to-



1 person- you will lose all luck in ur love life..... forever!!!!!


10 people- your crush will say they like you as a friend...... ONLY!!!!!



15 people- your crush will say they like you



20 people- your crush will ask you out!



25 people- your crush will kiss you!!



30 people - Your crush will fall in love with you



35 people or more- All of the above!!



Don't blow it, it's ur
chance to shine! Have everything u wanted, and more! Now, complaining
cus u dont have any
friends. Well theres an answer 4 everything. It's simple, just go in a
chat room, pick some names and send away! but here's the catch.....
you only have 1 hour
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samszie Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2013  Student General Artist
What if that special person is already with me :-o? I don't understand, I can't think, where is the FAQ >.<?! *swings from side to side*
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Kanakuri Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:icontoolongdidntreadplz:
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emerarudosempai Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Well that escalated quickly.
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luchyia Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
me encanta este dibujo me encanta,me encanta Love
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TheMorningFrog Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Parece que a imagem mexe comigo...
It's just wonderful
And i love the style you used!
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Meiannethea Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2013
bloody gorgeous!
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shadamykiss Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013
this is a beautiful picture!
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Jesserfly Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
WOW... nice! It's bloody but not TOO bloody. I'm having a tough time describing how I like this .-.
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skipdj Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I like this pic yet it seems a little dark not a bad thing but the paper dolls add an interesting twist to the scenario great pic though :)
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BlueTaffy Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
In the bdsm world emotional masovhism is always something of a problem. I myself have a fetish for humiliating and condescending subs. Yet t the same time I want my sub to be happy and self confident outside of the bdsm world. I know that isn't the kind of masochism you meant but I thought it worth mentioning. Sorry for
Mistakes on phone.
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NicoleYunet Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Amazing by far because of all it means ♥
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HylianLily Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Purchased this print from you at AX. ^^ One of my all-time favorite pieces of art. <3
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CHatterBOx010 Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is really amazing :o
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KittyKattKira Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2013
Agreed. Very powerful.
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Tomea Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2013   Writer
I wrote something after being inspired by your image~ I love how you played out each of the contradictions.
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RedCandy44 Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Student Digital Artist
this is awesome !!
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ParkerXIII Featured By Owner May 18, 2013
This is such a powerful drawing. It expresses so much I am truly amazed. Keep the good work up!
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oOvanillaOo Featured By Owner May 9, 2013
Holy crap.

You are amazing.
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4lifeanotaku Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow, the description if the masochist sounds like me. I don't know if it's bad or good........ o.o
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