I always wanted to draw a picture that explores the personality of a masochist, but not someone who physically abuses oneself; I wanted someone who enjoys emotional abuse.
I imagine that person to be someone who does contradicting things. It wants to be with other people, but locks itself in a bathroom. It doesn't want to be wet, but turn on the facets and opens an umbrella. It wants friends and cuts out little people, then tears them apart.
The gratifying pain is symbolized through the bleeding paper dolls.
I wanted to try a new drawing technique with this picture. It lacks the thin lines and smooth colors of my other styles. I drew it with a canvas texture but it's hard to see because of the small size on dA. The actual image is very big with detailed textured lines that looks like it was made with charcoal.
Drawn in Paint tool SAI
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