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Tape it Back Together by yuumei Tape it Back Together by yuumei
My family has a complicated history of separation, immigration, divorce, and remarriage. I won't go into the details but my mom often said to me "It's my life, my choice, I do what I want. You have no right to judge me."

I'm 18, but as a 9 year old child at the time, I couldn't repeat what she said. I could only wonder "Your choice in life affects me too."

Divorce is such a fad these days. Half the people I know have divorced parents, and most of them aren't happy about it. I understand in some situations divorce is the only way, but when your choice affects more than just you, think of the consequences and choose wisely.

With that said, I also wrote a short visual novel about the subject and an interactive narrative .
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SyndicateSylph Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh, god, this stuff that you do gets to me so much. It really describes what my inner child wants and what she's trying to tell. I was always talked with behind my other parent's back. My mom would ask who would I live with if they got a divorce, and my dad wanted to wait until I was 18, so they could divorce. They would yell in the other room next to mine as my bedroom's wall was thin, it was like they were in the same room as I. My mom had a few different cases of mental disorders and my dad had anger issues they both needed medication for. My mom, because of her illness, could no longer work and because of it would often randomly get mad at me and make me suffer for her cause, saying everything was my fault, not caring if I cried or anything. And it's weird. She used to always give me advice on how to stay strong and stand up to a bully. So I stood up to her and I ended up getting smacked and threatened that if I told anyone, she said she would know it was me and she would 'beat my ass.' I no longer knew who she was over the course of five years that felt like an eternity. I lock myself in my room and never come out, finding comfort in a fantasy (such as anime, games, ect.) that kept me literally alive as I would picture the characters and their lives as my own. I cry over the simplest things. If I'm asked if I am okay, my throat tightens and I start tearing up, because I know I'm not. It's the fact that nobody has ever said that to me. Heck, if I ask that to myself, I start to tear up at my own question to myself. For all my life, I wanted somebody to say I was lying and to say everything was going to be okay, even if I knew it wasn't. I wanted some assurance from the outside so badly. I had always thought about suicide, too, my first attempt being when I was 14 as I tied a noose, but I stopped myself for some reason. As the years went by, I found comfort in taking a blade to my wrists and legs. I would cut my legs in the Summer as I always wore jeans and I'd cut my arms, because I always wore long-sleeved shirts. To school I'm not this kind of person. My friends, or anybody else couldn't imagine me like that, since I'm always seen smiling, laughing, joking and never taking anything seriously. It was always because I was away from the place that used to be my sanctuary. My safe sanctuary is my room when the door is closed and all life outside is away. But truth is, I don't know myself or my personality. I was and I'm still masking with a facade. In the beginning of my life, since 'it' all happened, I've tried fitting in so bad that I don't know myself, even up to this day as I am gaining my own life to have power over it. I can never act serious over myself, since I was taught to help others before myself. I was told I gave the greatest advice, but never could I do that to myself to save my own life. The person I've forgotten to help is me. And that's the person you should truly look out for first. It's not selfish. I used to think it, but it's not, because if you don't, then how are you supposed to help others? You should be your number one fan, your best friend, think nothing less of yourself. Be who you are, even if others don't approve. You have one life and it's not your job to please others. You will look back on your years from your life and think why you cared so much. Our society is not perfect and neither is this world and it never will be. Perfection is in the eye of the beholder, it will always be different. Nothing and no one is perfect. But it's your job to find the littlest things that matter and turn them into something more and to hold on to that, so you can appreciate and cherish it in the time you do you have here. Make your life worth living. 
(Sorry, that I wrote so much. I began typing and just so much came out of me. Whoever reads all this, I applaud your patience and kindness.)
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lilybunny25 Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
This is so beautiful ;-; it made me tear up a little 
I wish you happiness and kindness for all the years to come! :heart:
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SyndicateSylph Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank-you very much, for your sweet reply <3Floating 
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lilybunny25 Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
your welcome~:heart: <3
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Xendigger-the-real Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2014
THis pierced right into my heart.
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Unisis-2-in-1-beauty Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2014  Student General Artist
Excuse my interruption oh mighty, talented artist, but  i applaud your strength and message.
;p, but really i do. ^w^
~maybe you seens me afore cause i sometimes stalk your art and comics and, ya know, like basically your account~
^^;
well, anywho, I have a project for school about what inspires me and I was wondering if i could use this piece as one of my examples(?) or whatever  best fits as a word to put there, but basically I'm asking if i could pretty please use this? If I do, if you say i can, Imma of course give credit and include this web-page link, as well as one to your basic home(?) page on here. and if possible can i maybe use some of your other awesome artsings as well, with credit and links to the page and home page too?
like, can you ummmm reply as soon as possible....it's due soon. but, please don't worry bout rushing, answer at your convenience. ^u^
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Amabilior Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2014  New member
You have a poetic mind...
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FireFriesian Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You just cut out my heart and left it on a spike... :) Your work is so good.
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EliTigre Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014
Darn, how could she tell you off like that ?! That's downright cruel and irresponsible, of course that sort of choice of life would affect your life, and you'd have a say in that ! I'm myself child of a divorced family, and I'm proud of my mother for leaving my father, but it seems not all parents care about their child the same way... But sure, divorce happens so often, we could call it mainstream.
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the-days Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014
please stop playing the pronoun game. In this comment who is "She". Not to sound patronising but the "She" in the work is Yuumie herself so I pressume you aren't reffering to that so what are you talking about?
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