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Rumination is an experimental work I did for my Interactive Narratives class. The story plays out like a choose your own adventure book, but no matter what you choose, it all leads to the same ending.

The story is not meant to say that we have no choices in life, but that there is no point in ruminating about a past that can't be changed. I use to waste away my days dreaming about what I could have done to save my parents' marriage, only to wake up to the realization that the past is gone, but I still have a future ahead of me.

At the Garden of Forking Paths I made a choice. No regrets. I look ahead.

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Everston Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2015
It's depressing, yet it's great.
MelanoTReX Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
GHOST3o0o Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2015
Cookie71266 Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2015  Hobbyist Interface Designer
I can relate almost perfectly. My mom isn't insisting I love her more. My dad is. Like the dad in this story.
Maximus-salo Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
holy cow this is touching and deep

wow like.. it's so simple but really meaningful
BubleElephant Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2015
When i started playing and reading it i just cried becouse you can't decide who you love the most becouse i love both the same way even though you get in fight's with them you love them them no mather what, sorry just needed to get it out 
XxJuliaAngelxX Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2015
is there a good ending?
pluieverte Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015
This is very good! Touching! Awesome job!
CanaryAge Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2015
Incredible work! I'm happy to say I come from a happy family cannot relate to this story, but this is truly an amazing and thought provoking animation. 
Cookie71266 Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2015  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Lucky you.Really Sad 
littledeathchiled Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2015  Student Artist
wow......i am speechless. this is amazing, no more than amazing, words can not describe how amazing this is
KitsuneKageoni Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you.
monokuropalette Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2015
Thank you. This is beautiful.
Catbandz Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I can TOTALLY relate with this, and it's just horrible. My dad, personally, would talk bad about my mother, pressure me into choosing which one to live with. He was a drunk, and had traumatic brain injuries that affected his actions. He promised me tons of things, like bribery, but then would make my mom and her family sound like villains. I almost believed him too, but I knew I shouldn't have to choose. I would cry nearly every night, and fall into a depression for nearly 3 years just thinking about it, the way he pressured me. I begged for death sometimes, if things got really bad. I was about 10 or 11. He would pressure me and say "When you turn 12, everything will change." If I even tried defending my mother and saying I love you equally, he'd get mad and slam his fist. He ruined my childhood, but he didn't ruin my life. I sometimes do feel regret, at what me and my family missed out on, as a whole, instead of a fraction. But I do think the divorce was right for our emotional welfare, and it was our best solution, not a perfect one. I realize now none of it was my fault, and it was his choice, not mine. I can wish for different in the past, or make what I wish for in the future a reality. It's time for my choice to affect me, not their choices.
MidnightTiger8140 Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is really beautiful. Thank you.
EricNyx Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Wow.. At the beginning everyone seemed so happy.. Then it got dark fast. I found out both of the parents's pasts and I found out about both of them.. I probably would chose the mother..
Chaosfired Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2015  Student Artist
If you 'played' it, you will both get bad endings because no ones happy, no one knows what they are doing. Everyones broken. The child [you] in this, have to choose who you love more, which is hard if you love them both.In the end, you will be upset because you think there's no use living this live anymore, not knowing what to do. Being cage like a bird, making hard decisions. it's really good, because it's about reality and stuff, I think. 
Deepereyes Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2015  Student General Artist
MustafaE3 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
That was...outstanding. Quite spectacular, I'll say!
MeilieStark Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2015
crying like a big baby,,..i bow to your geniusly genuine mind...,,turning pain into greatness..,,speechless..,,keep it up
Wayfir Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I dont hard ive cried...
KirBara Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2015  New member Hobbyist General Artist
rainbow cry Cry forever SpongeBob (Cries) Miuna Crying Icon Cry Cry STITCH LLORA Llama Emoji-08 (Crying) [V1] Asuna Crying Icon Rikka Crying Icon
that my expression after watch this Romano (Cries) [V4] 
Fuji615 Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2015  New member Hobbyist General Artist
Thank You Yuumei
LovelyKokeshi Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i miss my dad too, but at  the end, u're right, we cant change things like this
Akahiru Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i love my dad but i live by my mum because my dad diedPikachu Crying Plz 
MustafaE3 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I offer you my deepest condolences. 'i'm sorry for your loss. Still, everyone is not without their share of sadness.
LazerNart Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2015  Hobbyist
I feel bad for people whose parents split.I think that my parents probably aren't going to split until they get too old (like my grandparents). Honestly, I think that they would split if money wasn't an issue, I can't tell how THEY feel but I think that there marriage ended a long time ago and it's just a 'paper-marriage' now.

Ahhh. If I say stuff in here that makes no sense like mixed up words or repeating sorry, I just can't concentrate with the music. Music-vs-Reading 
DemonFirez Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2015  Student Digital Artist
this is very meaningful an almost hurt to choose what i would in real life. i suffer as well from a broken family, but not one you might think. half my family want a divorce and the other half doesn't. i am one who supports the decision due to the verbal abuse. this was a very meaningful experience to choose the path one's heart truly desires. i think it was very well done and i hope all goes well for both you and the rest of the children/families that have to go through this.
Carved-Smile Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2015
Well I don't understand how divorce feels like but I know what it feels like to have a parent die
because of drugs

And only to find out years later he tried killing you and your family multiple times
younger-it Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
Oh wow... That was terrible. Choosing like that, even if it was just to see the end of this. It's... true though. We can't just stop and regret the choices we made. We have to live.
procrastinator175 Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2015  Hobbyist
Wow, gorgeous. I tried every single route I could think of, to see if there was an ending that different. Truly a powerful message.
lamachu Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I found this a while ago... I'm so happy I found it again :)
Dragonic-Demonic Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Madi003 Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is one of the most beautiful things I've seen on deviantart.. My parents are currently going through a divorce and I feel like the child in this comic sometimes.. Thank you for making this. :)
ratnendra Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2014
wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww i have never seen any thing like this
artificial-en3my Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2014  Student Digital Artist
mfw this is so freakin amazing
TheSnowe Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2014
These comics are so touching and beautiful... truly amazing work :'D 

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sefira101 Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
haru-ryuno Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Actually my parents broke up when I was 3 y.o
It was kind of painfuf but my dad was an alcoholic so I understand my mom
She had a hard Time at raising me and my sister because she was working in a Bank in London and we we're living about 1h away from London.
But well, my mom found my Step Dad 8 years ago and She's happy, I'm happy and my sister is happy too^^
And I even got an younger half sister who I consider as my full
NephthysSenpai Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Defnately touching just like 1000 Words... Thank You DD Sign 
Navijunior Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2014
People forget that many upbeat and strong people became what they are now, not because they don't have hardships, but because they made the best choice they could with their head held up high.
GOOEYBEARinDaHouse Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i think i died a little on the inside....
*cries in the corner*
elie2000 Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2014
that's soooo sad these kids suffer so much through their life without anyone's just so horribleEnju Crying Icon  Sayu Crying Icon Futaba Crying Icon 
i just... ... forget it
isune Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2014
Although I am positive that you are well on your way
isune Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2014
I hope that your works save thousands and inspire millions.
auliaputri Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2014
New Bonnie mustache New Bonnie mustache New Bonnie mustache  thanks for make me cry... it's true...
HorseWar Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
it made me almost cry Cry emote but they music is beautiful Really Sad Heart Love So beautiful :) thing you made ^^ i love it !!! a very big + for it 
beaniebae Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
this made me cry oh my gosh thank you for making this its just beautiful QAQ
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