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Rumination is an experimental work I did for my Interactive Narratives class. The story plays out like a choose your own adventure book, but no matter what you choose, it all leads to the same ending.

The story is not meant to say that we have no choices in life, but that there is no point in ruminating about a past that can't be changed. I use to waste away my days dreaming about what I could have done to save my parents' marriage, only to wake up to the realization that the past is gone, but I still have a future ahead of me.

At the Garden of Forking Paths I made a choice. No regrets. I look ahead.

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JohneyLuke1 Featured By Owner 9 hours ago
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Kadaj-LeoPard Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I love this! you are a genius!
thanks for making this ^_^
CpLevi Featured By Owner 6 days ago  New Deviant
really love yur art work and this story is touching !! i dont know what to chose!!
i remember tha my perents almost got devorsed i was crying and thinking and then every night i started to dream about things how i was lonly with no pearnts so thats why i started drawing anime charectors and anime landscapes !! but surly yurs is the best!!! :) (Smile) Vio icon 
KamuriH Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
nothing scares me more than this... 
sworddancer94 Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2016
I couldn't agree more with's been four years now since the separation of my parents. The pain still lingers in my heart, at first
I tried to over look it, tried to trick myself like thinking "they are just messing around like usual, it'll be ok and they will stop joking like this
soon." Then, once I had moved my things into my mom's house, it all changed. I stayed with my dad on the weekends, I still do, even though 
I don't have to anymore. From that point on, I became the rock of the family the person who kept everyone together, the one who everyone
came to with their problems with this situation and other situations regarding the matter. But I had no one to turn to. No one but my best friend
that is. She was the only one there for me. But even then, I still felt utterly alone. Even though I had gained yet a new family that expected and 
loved me as one of their own. I still felt the agonizing pain that was lurking in my body, the darkness constantly swirling around inside of me.
I never complained, never did anything bad, always did all of the house work, helped my family with their emotional state, did everything within
my power to make everyone happy and to make good grades and graduate with a crazy ex bf who was always stalking me. And yet, more bad
things were happening, and I wasn't feeling any better about myself. I never really did thought much about myself, I really didn't think I mattered
enough to take care of my well-being. I had always thought of other's needs more than my own. I still do that but I at least take care of myself
well enough now that I can do both. I did thought about it a lot of the times, it was always on my mind. But never really did anything about it. At times the pain would become so unbearable that I thought it was the only relief I would get, the only thing to make everything go away, to make the hurting stop. But then, as soon as I would think that, all the smiling faces of the people I loved to dearly flashed in my eyes. I knew it would be a selfish act for me to do, it would have been the only selfish thing I would have done in my whole life. But, I never did it, and I won't ever do it.

I still feel the pain from back then but I'm starting to feel happier about it. It is true I did think that it was my fault that my parents had went
their separate ways, it took me a long time before I could see that it wasn't the case.

I don't know why I'm telling you all of this but for some reason I feel like I need to. I don't expect for anyone to reply to this, or anything
of the like.

But I hope you and other people will heal from this hurt that a lot of us have been through. The past will stay in the past, and I will continue
to live in the present and look towards the future.

I hope everyone will keep looking towards the future too.
lubylula Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
wow this made me realize just how terrifying this kind of scenario can be. even though I haven't experienced it, I feel It may happen in the future, so I can only hope it doesn't become to big a disaster. great representation.
SMawl Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Love ur works yuumei !
its really touching.... :'')

you make me remember how my mom and father divorced 2 years ago.
KuroshinNoragami Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
Though my parents have not been divorced and are married, my mother has divorced from my sisters father. I find you messages in this sad yet the horrible reality of how some lives are for kids with divorced parents, I really enjoy how you cause the reader to think that their life is of some value in someone else's viewpoint. A truly amazing message and an amazing story to tell.
RosyBlueflower Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
All your work is so amazing ;-; Never fails to make me tear up
AzureDestiny Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2015  Student Digital Artist
It's heartbreaking when a parents tells you that it's your fault that they split up. 
Rafiazad Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2015  Student Artist
This stirred something inside of me... Fear, awe, misery...I dunno really...
reikohattori Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That was beautiful and absolutely heartbreaking....
MoonbeamDragon1 Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
Ah this happened to me, luckily I'm over it and i still get to see both parents.
yaya131313 Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2015
ShampsHeart Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2015
This is incredible! Such a great idea.

What program did you use to make this?
FireTrinity Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is sooo good. It made me cry... Menma Honma (I still want to be with everyone) V1 Momo Kisaragi (Tears) [V7] 
ShinjiArashi Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
There is no way to change the past, and because of it there is no reason to feel regrets. We learn on our mistakes and this knowledge should be used to change the future into better one. If you have time to regret then you have time to stand up and fight for better future.
janev777 Featured By Owner Edited Nov 22, 2015  Student Digital Artist
hmm... they divorced when I was 3.. don't know much but I could feel the pain when I grew up. Well, I managed to get over it tho :D
But yeah, this interactive story really catch the feeling. Solid idea :)
Odette0216 Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2015
so sad, but yuumei you are so incredible. you are the greatest.
MC-Gemstone Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
gosh I remember playing this game 0.0 well more of a interactive story I was like 10 when I play this XD
m-dot Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2015
wow. Luv it!
WoBuShi Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
hahaha is it a game?
AaronMetallion Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
this is so damn beautiful yuumei! my biggest fear in the entire world is falling in someone, starting life together, and having it crumble, especially when kids are part of the family. I empathize with all those that had broken families, especially when both the mom and dad have their own families, and the child no longer belongs anywhere... you're one of my most favorite artists here on deviantart <3 hugs*
HiddenSnowFlower Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
;_; I cried playing this. You continue to touch and inspire me and countless others. That is something to be proud of.
nenufarbrush Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
There are very few words to describe how touching this is. <3
BlindDankness Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2015
Incredible and touching
FrostedMoonkist Featured By Owner Edited Oct 21, 2015  Student Digital Artist
I.. Couldn't pick between them...
janev777 Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2015  Student Digital Artist
exactly !
armaryte Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2015
When you don't want to do anyone choice about it. Well done
Beaubema Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
That was the coolist thing ive seen on here so far! Make another make another :D
Wilyy Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2015
This... This is like taken right from my own life. It's so well done and such a beautiful piece of work. And really touching
AmaniSalama Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2015  Student General Artist
This is beautiful. Captivating. Touching. Very well done.
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