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Rumination is an experimental work I did for my Interactive Narratives class. The story plays out like a choose your own adventure book, but no matter what you choose, it all leads to the same ending.

The story is not meant to say that we have no choices in life, but that there is no point in ruminating about a past that can't be changed. I use to waste away my days dreaming about what I could have done to save my parents' marriage, only to wake up to the realization that the past is gone, but I still have a future ahead of me.

At the Garden of Forking Paths I made a choice. No regrets. I look ahead.

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jessi5658 Featured By Owner 1 day ago
That´s so admirable ...
LukaMegurineLover Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That's totally awesome. Really.
GingerbreadTARDIS99 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2015  New Deviant Hobbyist Digital Artist
Iolyn-chan Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2015
I love your work, Yuumei. This one actually broke me to tears several times. Even though I replay this interactive narrative very often, even though I know the ending, I cry every time. I love it and understand it, and it always makes me feel both better and worse at the same time, especially when I go through a new issue with my parents. I know this must sound ridiculous, but you've changed my life, Yuumei. I do have one question, though: how do you get into that state of mind, the state of, "It isn't my fault," when all the decisions are left up to you? My parents hate each other. They also say entirely different things on the same subject and make me pick a side, and I'm not sure who to believe. I desperately want them to both be telling the truth. Oh, great. Now I'm getting my homework wet with my tears.
SkyeFalle Featured By Owner May 31, 2015
This brought up feelings from when my parents divorced a long time ago... I remember feeling like it was something I did that caused it. With what came after made it feel like my world was crashing down around me. I'd hear them fight at night and wonder if it was about my brother and I, but of course it was what I thought since I was just a child and thought the world revolved around me. I'm older now and I know the real reason they separated, which was probably the right choice. There was emotional and physical abuse in my household and my mom finally said she had enough, and I could not be more proud of her.
fizzymoth Featured By Owner May 24, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i'm getting goosebumps
i listen to this song all the time
it's by Kevin MacLeod!
YellowVixen Featured By Owner May 22, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
This was interesting for me, as I have never experienced any father at all. I don't put blame on myself, but I'll never know if my birth compelled my father to divorce his wife (whom he cheated on with my mother).
Twigs143 Featured By Owner May 20, 2015
sinterfall Featured By Owner May 19, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
This is beautiful. It captures all of the feelings that each of us may have, just in one slideshow. 
Whether big or small, we each carry our own burden. Like you explain, we just have to move on, like it or not.

...too many feels...
ButterChez Featured By Owner May 14, 2015
AAaaaw this is really sad...
Silffy Featured By Owner May 9, 2015  Student General Artist
I kind of blamed my dad for the separation, i still do, I probably should stop doing that.
linnkp8 Featured By Owner May 6, 2015   Artist
Its so AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!
Daynala Featured By Owner May 5, 2015
Wow, this is great, it has so many feels, I loved it
otakunakuro Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2015  Hobbyist Filmographer
THE  FEELS T.T i love it
Miri-Art Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I like to be with my mom. my dad is drinking and smoking, I don't like it.
artislife512 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Danisnotonfire: FEELS 
minimimimania Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2015  New Deviant Hobbyist General Artist
yeah, what they said.
Zakatsukuyo Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Maybe it was a good thing that my parents separated before my birth...
EillaThePortalMaker Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
I fell so torn, no matter what I do nothing helps!....I hope I never have to fell this for real.........
Eternaldragonqueen Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
My parents never divorced, so I don't know how it feels, but this really shows how awful it can be. I've always just considered divorce the norm. People can talk to you about your parents and except them to be divorced. But that's not right, I think.
VoluptuaryPedant Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2015  New Deviant Hobbyist General Artist
Bang OW! Right in the feelings
64killinninja Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2015  Student Digital Artist
This was really... well, it left me emotional that's for sure. Great job. :3
gojesser Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2015
You're a genius! :D
Ravengirl241 Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
This really impacted me on a personal level...I am glad you made this and the 1000 words. 
monkeyman19t Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2015
omg i so sad
fronanc345 Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2015
Well. I feel... like a weight has been lifted off of my soul. Thank-you!
baileykat10 Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2015  Student Artist
I couldn't choose.
Between mother and father.
I live with my mother and have never met my father.
But that doesn't make a difference, in what could have happened if I had met him.
Beautiful art. Thank you for sharing with all of us.
Thefriendlywolf Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2015
I returned to this adventure book once again. It really touches deep about what is happening right now.
chiwawapower Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2015
 always used to blame myself for my moms death, I kind of still do but my sisters tell me it was from the cancer she had
(I still wonder if it truly was cancer or are they just lying to me)
JaiyaPapaya Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2015  Student General Artist
Sorcerer1800 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
I couldn't choose.
My mom and dad always fight, but just refuse to divorce. 
It's hard to make a decision... 
I felt so small playing this, 
yet i felt like the world supports me. 
Yet I still can't choose.
Chihaki Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thepandacatgirl Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
is this how you feel?
Serafia-Sia Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I cannot understand how it is to feel in this situation but I think sometimes it is better if the parents get seperated and live their life but they should never forget their child/children. Sometimes I feel like all is coming down on me and that is because my parents have their arguments and it feels so wrong. It's their decision what they do with their lives but only hurt each other and despite that being together is cruel. Also they don't understand me and that hurts the most. It was always hard to stand it and I think it will be better if I begin to live my own life and let them do what they want. Sometimes it is better to live on your own than to live with your family.
Maybe you understand my view. On the other side it is better when the parents get divorced.
LordSammich Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This pushes my Feels button
Everston Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2015
It's depressing, yet it's great.
MelanoTReX Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
GHOST3o0o Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2015
Cookie71266 Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2015  Hobbyist Interface Designer
I can relate almost perfectly. My mom isn't insisting I love her more. My dad is. Like the dad in this story.
Maximus-salo Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
holy cow this is touching and deep

wow like.. it's so simple but really meaningful
BubleElephant Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2015
When i started playing and reading it i just cried becouse you can't decide who you love the most becouse i love both the same way even though you get in fight's with them you love them them no mather what, sorry just needed to get it out 
XxJuliaAngelxX Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2015
is there a good ending?
pluieverte Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015
This is very good! Touching! Awesome job!
CanaryAge Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2015
Incredible work! I'm happy to say I come from a happy family cannot relate to this story, but this is truly an amazing and thought provoking animation. 
Cookie71266 Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2015  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Lucky you.Really Sad 
littledeathchiled Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2015  Student Artist
wow......i am speechless. this is amazing, no more than amazing, words can not describe how amazing this is
KitsuneKageoni Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you.
monokuropalette Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2015
Thank you. This is beautiful.
Catbandz Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I can TOTALLY relate with this, and it's just horrible. My dad, personally, would talk bad about my mother, pressure me into choosing which one to live with. He was a drunk, and had traumatic brain injuries that affected his actions. He promised me tons of things, like bribery, but then would make my mom and her family sound like villains. I almost believed him too, but I knew I shouldn't have to choose. I would cry nearly every night, and fall into a depression for nearly 3 years just thinking about it, the way he pressured me. I begged for death sometimes, if things got really bad. I was about 10 or 11. He would pressure me and say "When you turn 12, everything will change." If I even tried defending my mother and saying I love you equally, he'd get mad and slam his fist. He ruined my childhood, but he didn't ruin my life. I sometimes do feel regret, at what me and my family missed out on, as a whole, instead of a fraction. But I do think the divorce was right for our emotional welfare, and it was our best solution, not a perfect one. I realize now none of it was my fault, and it was his choice, not mine. I can wish for different in the past, or make what I wish for in the future a reality. It's time for my choice to affect me, not their choices.
MidnightTiger8140 Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is really beautiful. Thank you.
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