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Anxiety, depression, and the fear of addiction to pills.

The cure is also the curse. 

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ketsamachan Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Student General Artist
nalmas Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
escapism-alda Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2016
love this! defiinately can relate.. <3
ColorfulVividity Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I definitely know all of these feelings. The fear of addiction is the worst, because it drags anxiety and depression along with it.

In mid 2014, I started having head pain that wouldn't go away. Never once has it gone away to this day. After a year of seeing well over 20 doctors, some in other states, i've found a doctor that has actually helped me and is continuing to work with me instead of giving up like the rest. That's not the point though... Part of the help I get is the medication I need to go on with life and not be in pain, which is an opiod. 

I know it helps me stay alive, but I live in so much fear that i'll get addicted to them. It's such a vicious cycle. Know that it helps, but feel like i'm going to get addicted, but knowing that it helps, but fearing that i'm going to get addicted...

So, this piece speaks on a personal level with me. It captures the feeling of everything perfectly.
t-r-a-n-c-e Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
This hit hard. I can relate. Well done. 
niauropsaka Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2016   Digital Artist
umlando Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2016
eerie and evocative, visually beautiful and full of loss
irisv-c Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2015  Professional General Artist
I Love this, you did a beautiful job! :clap:
BatCat200 Featured By Owner Edited Nov 14, 2015
Amazing as always!
im worried about going on medication but I'm going to have to anyway (my mums making me to help my anxiety)
i love the fact that you do art on serious matters such as this
keep up the good work!
AiryMariposa Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i really LOVE the artistic way you talk about important issues!
MariusForbid Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Jeez i love your art.. this one is so good!
Larathain Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2015
What pills do you fear to be addicted to? Curiously...
JenniferWeekley Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2015  Professional General Artist
How did I miss this one?! Gorgeous painting and a good visual representation of the struggle mental illness and medication/side-effects brings to people's lives. 
Oulana Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
Super awesome!!!!!Stare 
DrawingOfBen Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2015
awesome! I love it!
LaFlem Featured By Owner May 25, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Good,so good !And that illustrate perfectly how you become trapped when you are ignorant enough to take the chemical drugs provided by the so call "modern" medicine.
Removing only the symptoms without the causes of those,the patient need to take therefor medication again and again,and each time in more massive doses because of the adaptability of the body.
But the causes are still there and create new symptoms all the time,the western medicine make me want to throw up and remove some heads from their shoulders,it's an evil system who trap ignorant people's and basically turn them into powerless drug addicts,without healing them of course,like that the patient need to pay and pay again until he is eventually so weak and so overloaded with chemicals than he end up by dying.
Educate yourself people!
Chinese medicine,Native American medecine,and many others use plants and different gentle technique mostly for prevention and are mutch more reliable than the corporate bullshit,money hungry Western Medecine.
saicing Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Calm down, Paul! China's just as corrupt as the west, and has always been.
LaFlem Featured By Owner Edited Sep 23, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
A medicine using natural plants,acupuncture,acupressure,massages,heat, specific alimentation,specific practice and exercise,before even than the patient turn sick is infinitely less corrupt than a medicine using artificial chemical drugs...once the patient is sick,making in sort to make him even more sick.
Cottonera Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2015  Student General Artist
I think you need to calm down a bit, some people do in fact need medication to manage while they also get psychiatric help. Its not for everyone, and some people react badly to certain medications. But that doesn't mean it should be discarded all together. (Source: I'm a mental health patient who uses a combo of exercise, eating well and anti anxiety medication and psychological techniques.)

Also traditional medicine isn't always the best route. It can help no doubt if theres actual scientific proof behind why it helps. But there is a LOT of natural medicine that is pure quackery. (ie using black salve to treat cancer being an common example.) I'd also like to point out that its not 'western medicine' but actually modern medicine. If you rejected all so called western medicine you wouldn't have vaccines, antibiotics, hayfever medication, pain relievers to make surgery less painful and survivable, or important medical marvels such as pacemakers, cochlear implants, hip/joint replacements, or the chance to have your organs replaced if they fail (ie kidney failure being a common example.)
LaFlem Featured By Owner Edited Sep 23, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Ha ha sorry if I seem a bit pationated or even extremist.
I learned recently than it's a trait of my personality to provoke and throw picks at people,no wickedness just a way for having a reaction,and talking about what no one is brave enough to talk about,a way to shake the status quo and the taboos.
I don't reject everything of the modern medicine,just what's wrong.
Chemical drugs,chemotherapy and chemical treatments,chemical pain killers are doing nothing good,even if it seems so at the beginning.

Cancer is the perfect example for see the kind of scam which is going on.

Cancer can be cure through canabis oil (more than enough proofs of that now) or even less expansive, by simply fasting and eating aliments who contain natural anti-cancerous elements like grapes,carrots,ginganber,turmeric and many more.
Cancer is caused by an overload of acidity in one's body,often caused by the way oneself is alimenting (too much meats,sugars,food with chemicals,food lacking nutrients), by stress and negative emotions and many other factors who help the release of acidity in the body (yes stress is one of them).

Anyway according to modern medicine the best way to health cancer is to overload your system with basically they inject in your bloodstream a massive dose of really nasty chemicals.....are you guys fucking retard to allow them to do that or what?

The cancer may be gone after a couple of chemios yes (everything is gone...your hairs too) but the cause of it is even worse than before....Ho yeah i forgot to precise than you have to pay 10000 dollars for one Chemiotheraphy and than they ask you to do many.

See what I am talking about here?
AngieMyst Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Well said!
sadistic-virile Featured By Owner May 16, 2015
So beautiful! I wish you would submit it for print. I'll love to buy one. 
UntoldPromises Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Amazing! So deep and powerful. Well done!
Aincha Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2015
Please please make it a wallpaper
Wolfy-T Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2015
This picture is so important to me.
TheAwkwardFangirl Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
I'm not addicted, but I have to take pills to function. While I know I need them, and I feel better while on them, it'd be nice to have the ability to live independently, to leave the house without wondering, "Did I take my meds this morning?"
IronJustice Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2015
Throw the pills away. They only temporarily hide the real problem. Face your inner demons and become truly free.
BatCat200 Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2015
i know people who would be dead if they didn't take the medication they needed.
medication helps many people I know.
IronJustice Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2015
Yes, for some people that is the case.
BatCat200 Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2015
 I know LOTS of people with mental issues
basically all of them say that medication is helping them alot
along with the counciler they see as well
but yeah, medication isn't really for everyone
e-macity Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2015
ah here speaks a true ignoramus 
IronJustice Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2015
Keep swallowing those pills buddy.
e-macity Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2015
those are what keep the demons away, idiot
not everything is conquered, some things you have to drown out
but you wouldn't get it, would you?
IronJustice Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2015
Perhaps I should amend my previous statement, it was a little strong. Medication has its place, but in Western society it is very over-perscribed and takes the place of counseling very often. When treating mental illness, insurance companies or medicare pay for the vast majority of treatment. Medication is simply cheaper and offers more predictable results in a short amount of time. In nearly all cases though, counseling is the best way for long-term solutions.
Cottonera Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2015  Student General Artist
I can pipe in here and say that not all medication is overprescribed. I use medication to keep my anxiety in check while I also seek other mental health treatments. Thats why its good that they have results that can occur in such a short time, as it can literally be what keeps you just barely functioning while you improve through getting help. I would have dropped out of school if it wasn't for my anti anxiety medication, because it took me 3 months just to get an appointment with a referral doctor. 

(The only other point I would say where this would not be the case is in terms of things like diabetic and arthritic medications, medicine for issues like schizophrenia which honestly can not be counselled into going away. etc. There are some things that just can't be fixed. Which is why some people with certain kidney diseases cannot get kidney transplants and have to live on kidney dialysis for the rest of their life.)
Mister-Bragg Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2015
'The cure is also the curse. ' That's so true...
Great work again!
SakuraBast Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2015
Fascinating concept and excellent delivery. I especially like the color contrast
TheAshLad Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
>addiction to pills
mmm. Reminds me of Dr. House
WithBlackStars Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2014
magneticecho Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This makes my heart ache. It's too beautiful. Ahhhhh. ;w;
Holi--Day Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
OMG! Super!!!
ZombieToofer Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Those are pill bottles, I just realized. Really like the colors and the flowing lines of the hair/tentacles/antlers. Very surreal and otherworldly.

I think you really nailed the feeling here, of anxiety.
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Asche-Creedance Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
right now I'm dealing with substance abuse, namely pain pills...this drawing is like a reflection of what's happening inside of me right at this moment...I'm going cold turkey...the withdraw symptoms are excruciating...especially the dark gnawing sensation in my me this image shows how twisted my addiction has become and how though I try so desperately my subconscious is constantly thinking of ways to get my hands on seems so hopeless but I won't give much of your other work shows such unimaginable starry skies that have never existed in nature brought to life by you....its like you are able to see the darkness and the light of freedom and capture both...thanks for all your work~
AlienSkull Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
MisunderstoodFreak Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014  Student General Artist
and also tentacles. . 
quocorya Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014
Love the familiar word "dread" has with hair. "dreadlocks"
Ripplingwaves Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2014
this speaks a million words
tsitra00 Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2014
Profoundly cathartic.  Great rendition of the intangible.
UnluckyxSe7en Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
That's always a fear of mine when I see friends of mine getting prescribed medicines. :(
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