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Don't Be Selfish by yuumei Don't Be Selfish by yuumei
I was recently informed that my dad may not have much longer to live due to heart conditions, but of all the things to do before his death, seeing me is not one of them because his wife wonít allow it and he canít be bothered to care. Itís weird to find out that while my dad is still alive, the last time I saw him 3 years ago is the last time I will ever see him again.

Itís hard to fight back the memories of how much things have changed since my youth, so I will just embrace it instead.

Itís funny how they used to say that they did everything for my sake. Iím sure they actually believed it themselves back then, but time has a way of changing people. I canít help but find it ironic that the things they did to help the family ultimately torn it apart. Never coming home to make money, going abroad to study; distance makes the heart grow cold, and time weathers down all promises.

I had always been very understanding of their divorce. Hey, it happens. But as they built new lives, it became evident that I was not included. It doesnít matter now, but at the time, I was still a minor and had to depend on them. Itís just like a slap in the face when your own mother tells you that you have nothing because your father didnít pay for it. Adding to the list of things I donít have is the right to see my dad before his death. The leftover child of that failed marriage is no longer a concern.

I feel so bitter right now itís fucking disgusting.
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Artygal Featured By Owner 22 hours ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This hits so close to home it's unbelievable 
Celsy Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
How do you feel about this now? Do they know what you've accomplished?
Hextator Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2014
I already commented on this (I think) and favourited it years ago, but I still find it very relevant (partially to me, but also in general) and still love you so much for posting this.
RyoPyoTurtle Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
You art is very powerful and beautiful. 
SleepyDayDreamerzzzz Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
im crying.................
ItaloAmericana Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You are a strong person, to go through all of this.
BigMaceeyup Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2014
I read a lot of sad things, this made me cry. You deserve better than this.
EdwinaCX Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You deserve the chance to see your dad! What kind of stepmother forbids their stepchild not to see her father before his death?
Katrinava Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
If I'm not mistaken, Yuumei has said that her dad lied about not having too long to live in a journal entry, she actually visited him and his new family but it took a bad turn for the worse. Read her journal to find out?
EdwinaCX Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Can you send me the link?
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