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Don't Be Selfish by yuumei Don't Be Selfish by yuumei

I was recently informed that my dad may not have much longer to live due to heart conditions, but of all the things to do before his death, seeing me is not one of them because his wife won’t allow it and he can’t be bothered to care. It’s weird to find out that while my dad is still alive, the last time I saw him 3 years ago is the last time I will ever see him again.

It’s hard to fight back the memories of how much things have changed since my youth, so I will just embrace it instead.

It’s funny how they used to say that they did everything for my sake. I’m sure they actually believed it themselves back then, but time has a way of changing people. I can’t help but find it ironic that the things they did to help the family ultimately torn it apart. Never coming home to make money, going abroad to study; distance makes the heart grow cold, and time weathers down all promises.

I had always been very understanding of their divorce. Hey, it happens. But as they built new lives, it became evident that I was not included. It doesn’t matter now, but at the time, I was still a minor and had to depend on them. It’s just like a slap in the face when your own mother tells you that you have nothing because your father didn’t pay for it. Adding to the list of things I don’t have is the right to see my dad before his death. The leftover child of that failed marriage is no longer a concern.

I feel so bitter right now it’s fucking disgusting.
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Hypermuffins Featured By Owner May 11, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I understand this so much it hurts just to look at. .__.
khbaur330162 Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2016  New Deviant
*tries to comfort and pet you with a friendly mind yet stone heart*
Lena-luvs-cats Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2016  New Deviant Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is so deep. I'm in tears.
Icedfires Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm literally before crying, cause  of this. People are sometimes so selfish that they don't get, or get it to late, that they hurt others and self if they say they would never Change they do.
Froodals Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
dam.... speaks to my heart :iconsadhugplz: hope life is treating you better nower days (im not sure how old this post was) :heart:
EndlessBlueOcean Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2016  Student Artist
You're very brave by telling everyone how you feel. Hope everything has worked out for you
zinon999 Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2016
You're not alone...
but you have your way to express it.
I wish if I have some of your talent to do so...

DuchessGala1011 Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2016  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I don't know what to say... I just want to hug you. Chisaki Crying Icon 
NAK246 Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I understand
Kishi27 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2016
I just thought I'd let you know I found this with no credit or link to you on the meta picture.…

I also wanted to say that you are an amazing artist: your works are some of my favorites, they inspire me quite a lot, artistically, mentally, and just as a person. You seem like a lovely person, so no matter what remember that you are awesome and talented and amazing (:
LemonNeko1911 Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
this is so cruel, but beautiful, so so sorry for what you've been through. I really feel you.
"he's not white and not rich" sounds racist
MaiaSan Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
no offence Yuumei but your mom sound like a bitch
Peaceful-Child Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2016  Student General Artist
Gives you all the hugs! You are a awesome and great person! They are the selfish ones.
halolha Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2016
This is too sad...

Jesus loves you though

I do too
amunoz0 Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2016
I had seen this before on pinterest and I really liked it and wanted to see more of the artists work. I didn't realize that it was you and I just wanted to say that I really like your work and that I related to this, not on a full scale but partially, I can't wait to see what you make next. :)
LoveHeartPeace Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2016  Student Artist
it's sad Cry run 
ALDAL Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2016  Student Traditional Artist

your parents are selfish bastards 
MegaFreedom1274 Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I agree >:1
MegaFreedom1274 Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm really sorry.... i thought i had rough..<:/

there's a bright side to everything though!! Like, at least your not dead? That's kind of a bright side! least your not a victim of child abuse! That's another bright side...kind of?
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man i realy suck at this...Facepalm 
InvaderNexis Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2016  Student General Artist
well...its like i always say.

Beauty and success are sometimes born from the worst kinds of misery. 
afidaht Featured By Owner Edited Jan 29, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
keep strong Yuumei, keep strong...
all children have their problem, we can through it
SapphirePoppy Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2016
It's not really my place to say this but I think it needs to be said: if you want to see your dad then go see him! Even if people tell you not to. You're an adult, right? This is your decision to make, not anyone else's. This is your last chance to say something to him. Or his last chance to say something to you. He may just be glad to see you, even if he doesn't say it. Three years ago doesn't have to be the last time you saw him. It's your choice.
(Sorry, not my place, I just think it's important)
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