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Don't Be Selfish by yuumei Don't Be Selfish by yuumei
I was recently informed that my dad may not have much longer to live due to heart conditions, but of all the things to do before his death, seeing me is not one of them because his wife wonít allow it and he canít be bothered to care. Itís weird to find out that while my dad is still alive, the last time I saw him 3 years ago is the last time I will ever see him again.

Itís hard to fight back the memories of how much things have changed since my youth, so I will just embrace it instead.

Itís funny how they used to say that they did everything for my sake. Iím sure they actually believed it themselves back then, but time has a way of changing people. I canít help but find it ironic that the things they did to help the family ultimately torn it apart. Never coming home to make money, going abroad to study; distance makes the heart grow cold, and time weathers down all promises.

I had always been very understanding of their divorce. Hey, it happens. But as they built new lives, it became evident that I was not included. It doesnít matter now, but at the time, I was still a minor and had to depend on them. Itís just like a slap in the face when your own mother tells you that you have nothing because your father didnít pay for it. Adding to the list of things I donít have is the right to see my dad before his death. The leftover child of that failed marriage is no longer a concern.

I feel so bitter right now itís fucking disgusting.
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Seifirosu Featured By Owner 20 hours ago
This was posted on, that's how I got here. It sounds like a pretty toxic environment to grow up in, I hope you are out of that situation now, and that you smack the crap out of your father's wife.
Taiya001 Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:tighthug: I am so so so sorry.
Hellspawn626 Featured By Owner 2 days ago
I know that it has been a while since you posted this, but I felt the need to respond to it regardless. While my experiences with my parents are nowhere near as bad as yours, they haven't been stellar. I've found myself getting the shaft in regards to my father's relationships since my parents got divorced, so I can understand what you're going through, even if only by a small part. You have an enormous community online that supports and respects you, and while we are in no way capable of replacing what you've lost, we want to help in any way we can.
I've purchased from your table at Fanime Con for two years now, so after reading this I know that you've found your place despite these problems, and I think it is nothing short of incredible. We wish you the best.
7thstar Featured By Owner 3 days ago
I can't believe that your parents are like that. I can only hope that Axent Wear will be a huge success.
DarkDragonTanis Featured By Owner 4 days ago
o.o/  i just found this comic strip on facebook withount crediting its yours…
foxfoxfox3 Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Well that hurts the shit outta my heart.
ariodante28 Featured By Owner 5 days ago
You and your relations will be in my thoughts. </3
Alxlpz Featured By Owner 5 days ago
Hang in there I hope you have friends that support you in these difficult times. Go Out and live if you don't think about it it won't hurt you more. 
Nanne24 Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist
Many people go through this including my boyfriend. It hurts to see him down in the dumps, saying he wants to quit his job, his education, and his life. I always remind him he has people who love him and are willing to help carry his burden. For everyone here in deviant we support and care about you. Your not selfish....your just lonely and its ok. We are here. Your not alone on this, let us take our hands, silly nilly. Komari Kamikita (Smile) [V1] 
Farelle Featured By Owner Edited 5 days ago  Student General Artist
it sounds alot like they tried to avoid having much to do with each other...they got frustrated and maybe exhausted and unsatisfied with their lifes, but instead of trying to find a solution together or look in themselves for what they are missing they made the other partner at fault for all their problems...and since you are a result of THEM, they maybe couldn't see past it anymore that you are both AND yourself and that whenever they look at you they will see all those undealt problems they had with each other....
They love you and they probably love each other still, but just can't see past it, so they had to lie to themselves and you, to protect their own worlds and why it couldn't be themselves...

I think i know how you feel and I agree, I never had a problems with my parents divorcing either, but WHAT broke me in my childhood, was that stupid behavior of my dad who talked my mom bad and kinda forced me to not see her again and on top of that telling me all the time that I'm like my is disgusting, how running away from problems and denying them is actually worst thing someone can do in my opinion to a child...and maybe they even thought its better for you to not know everything
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