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Don't Be Selfish by yuumei Don't Be Selfish by yuumei
I was recently informed that my dad may not have much longer to live due to heart conditions, but of all the things to do before his death, seeing me is not one of them because his wife wonít allow it and he canít be bothered to care. Itís weird to find out that while my dad is still alive, the last time I saw him 3 years ago is the last time I will ever see him again.

Itís hard to fight back the memories of how much things have changed since my youth, so I will just embrace it instead.

Itís funny how they used to say that they did everything for my sake. Iím sure they actually believed it themselves back then, but time has a way of changing people. I canít help but find it ironic that the things they did to help the family ultimately torn it apart. Never coming home to make money, going abroad to study; distance makes the heart grow cold, and time weathers down all promises.

I had always been very understanding of their divorce. Hey, it happens. But as they built new lives, it became evident that I was not included. It doesnít matter now, but at the time, I was still a minor and had to depend on them. Itís just like a slap in the face when your own mother tells you that you have nothing because your father didnít pay for it. Adding to the list of things I donít have is the right to see my dad before his death. The leftover child of that failed marriage is no longer a concern.

I feel so bitter right now itís fucking disgusting.
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lupine-feline Apr 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This might not help, but my grandpa told me when I was little that even though lemons are sour when you first pick them, you can always turn them into lemonade with a little sugar. [of course that's really similar to the whole when life gives you lemons saying but my grandpa always liked to think a little differently.]
We can't control where we come from, who we're brought up by when we're kids, but you can choose where you go from there, once you're capable of taking control of your own life and fending for yourself on your terms. I understand the whole ironic part of them doing things to help the family but it back firing, that's kinda what's happening over on this side of the internet, and people forget that their reality isnt the only one going on. To each person, everyone else is sort of a side character, a background prop sometimes, and when someone calls us who is, i dont know, upset about something, we might be too busy and say I can't speak right now, meanwhile we're watching TV, and we say we'll get to them later. But later never comes, they remained upset the whole night, that was there reality, you watching TV all day, seeing them perfectly okay the next day was yours. We tend to forget that everyone is living a life as vivid as our own. And this is how the heart grows cold. I believe that if you have a kid, thats it, You have a Kid now. And cant expect to brush them aside so you can go out and party or this and that, yeah working for money is one thing, but, ya know. Dont complain that your spouse didnt do this or that and tell your kid that they have to deal with it, its not right to make a child feel that way. I'm hardcore sympathizing with you right now, this is my step dad and mom right now. Accept, apparently it keeps getting called a special case, my mom and real dad are on okay terms so i can see him though not often because he lives in another state with his girl friend. And im going to stop the details cause wow was that probably a read for you.
after reading that journal about your dad's side and read this again
my tears omg

you can do it man, you still have your grandparents and friends and your supporters and fans
speak to us, and we will listen, we won't think its a bother! ;u;
wishing you a superrrr bright future
having a sad past will make you a stronger person
i mean look at naruto <--LOL

but seriously wish you all the best!
DremKiller5678 Mar 25, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
I git where you are coming from 
LaughButts Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
LaughButts Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist

the tears man, the tears.. ;n;
Dryft-Art Mar 20, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Very powerful comic strip......
Loniicera Mar 20, 2014  Student General Artist
This sounds like a story.. or a movie... but this is reality... if only reality was fake. i think a whole lot people would be happier.
Dramawind Mar 20, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Step one: Fave this.
Step two: Lay down.
Step three: Try not to cry.
Step four: Cry a lot.
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